Wow. Stuck in the middle of summer. I have an internship that pays well and rewards me with the experience I need to go into the computer science and management and information technology field if I want that to be my career. I am also in the middle of summer which tends to leave me in a mode of frustration and anxiety despite not being in a classroom setting. Working a forty hour week is no joke. I can maintain my mind in a work-related environment but when I leave that area for the day, I think I go temporarily insane. My mind starts going everywhere, my thoughts are often discombobulated and I want to just rest my mind to relieve it of its agony. Even when the work day has been uneventful, I find myself at a loss of self-consciousness. When a forty hour work week is compounded with problems ranging from lack of work to waiting for a job to run to fixing printers from their numerous jams, my week has become a lot longer.
I often find myself not wanting to go home. I want to stay in the workplace for as long as possible, hoping to find more work to do and more time to learn. When I arrive at my house, I try to avoid my parents and their various comments, whether it is about the buses I catch to get to work, how is my day, or the several thousand other comments they say as they stare at me when I come through that front door during the six o'clock hour. As much as this is welcoming, it is also quite troubling for me. Generosity and curiosity are good for a person to have but sometimes I want to see absolutely NO ONE. I want to be alone; no words or faces, just the accompaniment of my own silence. I know- I am crazy- deal with it. I have a method to my madness.
To avoid this issue, I always get my freedom from the workplace and my home by going to a shopping mall and spending some quality me time. Once again, I know it sounds crazy but it is the truth. I think that by spending some time to myself, I can cope with the various ways that I feel about my work and my home. I reward myself on each Friday, usually heading to Tower City (downtown, baby!!) and spending in stores that I would normally think of going in (e.g. Brooks Brothers). I am not a guy who is a spendthrift (believe me, I had a C.D. that I opened freshman year that stored some $$$$$!!!), but I like to build my repertoire once in a while. I like casual and business clothing so if I see something that looks good and is in excellent condition meaning no holes, tears, rips, or anything suspicious that would take away from the quality of the clothing, then I may just get it at a reasonable price (something that fits what I am earning weekly). I am not a big shopper so I usually buy two (or if I am feeling extra generous three) articles of clothing a week. That is not bad. I don't think most guys are big shoppers anyway, it is just something we have to do especially if you are a trendy person. This shopping soothes any pain, anger, or frustration I had within the past 120 hours. Then, I can go home a happy man. IN YOUR FACE STRESS FACTOR!!!!!!
So, as I sit behind this computer, relish the free time you have because once you begin to work and especially doing your passion, you will probably need to balance that with a little R & R. That is how I cope at least. Well, it is turning dark and I am becoming more heavy-eyed. I better do some tasks that I have before I nod off and forget about them.
I love my internship and my R & R,
Hasani Wheat
Class of '10
P.S. - I get my new camera soon so you can see all of my excursions.
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