I don't know. There are some days where I think that I can handle anything. I want to go into my classes and answer every question even if it is wrong so I will be able to learn the right answer. I want to go into my organizations and get everyone pumped up about upcoming events. I want to be a force in the community, no matter where it is.
Today is NOT one of those days. The strain of beginning school after Mid-Semester Break and my mid-term reports is starting to wear on me. At times, I feel like I have to be a machine to keep up with the rigorous level of my courses. All of the reading, all of the problem-solving. I know that is all required but sometimes, I get the feeling that some of the courses that I am taking are only going to be used in rare situations. I am not complaining, I am just venting my thoughts. Whenever I do get finished with my work, more work get piled on to me. Well, I guess if I am having a problem with the workload now, then I might be digging my own course if I decide to attend graduate school for higher learning. I realize that grinding through the work and learning the concepts will help me in the long run. All I am saying is that the class scene (unless it is a specialized class like a seminar class) becomes boring to me now that I have experienced the corporate world.
Truthfully, I miss working eight to five, learning about the exquisite ways of Parker-Hannifin. I like having control of the situation and learning how to implement concepts of my class into my work. I miss the interaction between management and myself, the conversations I had with my co-workers, and all of the other experiences I had while I was there in the summer. Don't get me work, I like college life; however, I think that the corporate world may be a better fit for me. The corporate world requires me to be active in my work; moving from area to area was a daily thing for me. The physical and the engineering portions of the problem worked hand in hand together. I felt comfortable taking risks and being unapologetic in making them. Now, I am back at OWU and I feel different in my sophomore than I did in my freshman year. I have experience under my belt, which I think is the most important thing a person can have on their resume.
With the stress of being a full-time student in full effect, I know that academics come first. You may not see me a lot but that does not mean that I am not working and trying to understand the concepts. I know that it is important but I need the social in my life as well. Without the social part of OWU, I would probably not be at OWU right now, typing this blog to you. I need a balance in my life. Working on my majors takes time, but I rather be cheering on the Men's or the Women's Soccer Team, planning Homecoming events, or being a voice on WSCA at a drop of a hat. If you would have asked the high-school version of myself, I probably would have told you otherwise (yes, I was that kind of kid when I was younger). I still am that way- to an extent. Right now, I am going to enjoy life- even if that means I will have to compromise some study time to do so. This may seem selfish in a way but if I don't enjoy life now, I may not get the opportunity to do it later. Try to understand my point of view of how things should be for an individual in college.
I am still in a quandary. On this very rainy Thursday, my day is not the usual Thursday. This is the schedule for today:
8-10 a.m. (right now) - Working at Student Involvement
12 p.m.- President's Council for Racial and Cultural Diversity meeting
1-3 p.m.- Making of Britain (fortunately, my prospectus is delayed to next Tuesday)
3-4 p.m.- Selling Demetri Martin tickets
6-12 p.m.- Pizza Delivery for Black Men of the Future (can you say massive Study Session?)
Luckily, my 10-11:30 a.m. Environmental Alteration class got canceled (although I am bummed that I will not get my paper or my test back until next Tuesday; I actually want to see the final results on both of them). Still, this is my TYPICAL kind of day. Classes, lots of study time while doing organizational stuff, and meetings. Honestly, this week is easy; next week is going to be brutal with tons of reading, work to turn in, and to top it all off, the week of Homecoming is here. This is what I was anticipating. The question now is what will happen to me in the next week and a half. I am tired of the same routine, I think everyone is at this point. Bring on the new classes and activities!
Stay tuned,
Hasani Wheat
Class of '10
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