Losing it over here

I have been working for about 5 weeks now and I feel like somewhat inadequate. I am doing my job but I don't know. I want more. Looking at a computer screen for almost eight hours can do that to you.

My pictures are boring right now so I will wait to build up the portfolio. In the middle of summer. Great. The routine is getting monotonous now but I know I will be saying that again in the middle of the school year. That is just me. I am frustrated, annoyed, and standoffish right now. I am clearly not thinking straight- but hey I'm human. If people can't look past that- that is their prerogative. I am a man of many weaknesses- don't pounce on me just because of this. I'm sorry, but like I said, I am outright frustrated at myself and the world right now.

Well, now that the feelings are now in the open, I think I will vent some more. I guess I will vent about this wonderful thing that has bothered me even though I know I can't control this phenomenon. Now I am a Christian but I have noticed the divide in the ages in church. Churches have become more isolated in terms of the age ratio. In more traditional churches especially in urban areas, a lot of people are of the elderly population. I have seen it with my eyes. Now I am not trying to generalize- my opinion- but in many churches, there are very few, if any, young persons (generally, under 30 years of age). Do you think this is kosher?

I feel that the Word of God should unify people. However, the style of how the Gospel is being taught speaks volumes. Honestly, many of us youth do not like the older traditional way of learning the Bible and going to church. Honestly, I don't like sitting in the church for two hours and learning just from that way. There are sundry ways of learning in the Spirit. And yes, I believe that you do not have to go to church just to go to Heaven. I believe that the church is here on Earth to bring all people, Christians or otherwise together to learn more about God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit. Anyway, the point I am trying to get at is: youth should not have to call obligated to go to other churches once they reach that age where technically they are "rebellious." I want to see churches become more unified in its purpose and with the people they reach out to.

I know that this may be a shock to some especially to those who may have been oblivious to it. I know that I will probably be getting a very long letter from an angry person but I am just letting you know my opinion and what is happening to the church especially in urban settings. People: do me a favor. Ask your elders or your youth how they really feel about the church and I am sure they will tell you the truth. It is church, you know.

All right. Enough talk from me. Let me hear your opinions- I know some of you are quite ready to tear me a new one.



"Mr. Controversial"
Hasani Wheat
Class of '10